Tuesday, July 17, 2007

July 17th

My First and maybe Last

Hey to anyone who is reading this. I really didn't want to blog about this issue but it is eating me up inside and I have no one to talk to. I have been so emotionally sick and drained the past 2wks that it's not funny and over what? Falling in Love

I fell in love with someone and didn't really want to admit to it until it was too late. The person moved on and started dating someone else. When I tell you that I have cried over the last past two weeks, I have really cried. The person did not know how I felt and that's the worse part about it. I never came out and said " I love you and I want to be with you". When I tell you it hurts so bad, sometimes I can't breathe at night. After said person stated that they were dating someone that is when all truth came out and they were apologizing and saying they wish they would have known. Funny thing is that they liked me as well. So yes there was a big azz lack of communication from two people that communicate very well. I feel as if someone has taken my heart, squeezed the blood out and drank it in front of my face. I have been trying to get over it but it's a day by day fight for me. I have never met anyone like this individual. From day one they were caring, comforting, intelligent, humorous, bright, great smile beautiful body. Man, I missed just being next to them. I have met the person that they're dating and it's kewl. I wished them both well but I am not going to give up.
I'm sorry that I can not put a lot more of the story in the blog but you get the gest of it. I would like to offer this up to everyone. If you love someone please tell them up front. No one is a mind reader.

Oh, sorry. There is one twist to the story.

The person is my roommate.

6 Comments:

Blogger D-Place said...

I read this and I want to tell you that I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Hopefully you'll be able to still love your roommate but in such a way that your relationship will last a lifetime. If you are meant to be with him it will happen. Think of all the good times you are going to have with him just being his roommate and friend. That last a lot longer than some relationships do. Enjoy the good times.

Thanks for visiting my blog and I'm glad my post helped. It sure helped me.

6:57 PM  
Blogger TheBlacks said...

I'm speechless - It's really hard to say how you should handle this situation since he's your friend and roommate. But I agree with D-Place, it should all come out in the wash.

9:45 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

**cyber hug**

9:56 PM  
Blogger ThisMightBeMe said...

I've been in a similar situation and the best advice I can give you is to let nature take it's course. Don't push the issue in any way. Most importantly don't allow yourself to be stagnant, awaiting the possibility to come to fruition. Live your life. I know you're in love, but you never know who may be right around the corner to love you back the way you deserve to be loved. Best wishes.

12:00 PM  
Blogger THE PISCEAN said...

Thanks everyone for the words of wisdom. This has been the hardest thing that I have ever faced. I will make an attempt to carry on my life and not wait around like a fool. It just hurts like hell peeps. But life must go on. Again, thanks for the words. I hope everyone has a great and prosperous life.

2:41 PM  
Blogger Dayne Avery said...

Chances are that relationship may not last as long as you fear it will. Next time he's availible, learn from the hurt and speak your heart if you are still feeling the same.

4:24 PM  

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